Post date: Mar 19, 2014 2:15:15 AM
Today I was talking with a friend who told me of the tragic death of his spouse which had occurred several years ago. A feeling of compassion flooded me as I listened because it was evident to me that he had experienced some deep emotional scars. To a degree, I understood his grief, since, as a 4 year old child, I had eye witnessed the tragic death of my grandmother and had experienced the negative and emotional turmoil first hand.
The memories, for me, following this tragedy lingered for many years, fortunately time and age absorbed much of the sting but many emotional scars were left hidden. I remember struggling with rejection and insecurity throughout my childhood resulting in having very few friendships. My friendships increased as I grew older but I remained rather insecure inwardly, however, outwardly I had oddly become extroverted in an attempt to mask any insecurity that I was experiencing. In my opinion, I appeared to be a rather well adjusted young man.
Isaiah 61:1 The Spirit of the Lord is upon me because the Lord hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the broken hearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives and the opening of the prison to them that are bound:
Ephesians 5:13… But, all things that are reproved are made manifest by the light: for whatsoever doth make manifest is light.
It wasn't long after I had been saved that I became aware of my emotional bondage. The memories that had been suppressed for years began to remerge. There was many times following prayer where I thought that I had victory over these memories but something unrelated would happen causing my emotions to reengage. It finally became clear to me that because the death of my grandmother had occurred at such a young age I never comprehended that the memory of this tragedy and the resulting emotions were linked. The memory had become the trigger which caused the emotions to engage.
The revelation that I received which helped me find liberty was that Christ’ victory over death included the forgiveness of sins and also the healing for the broken hearted. I realized that the hurt I experienced had occurred as a child but to that point I had been using my adult analytical mind to reason away the symptoms. It finally became evidently clear that it was the little boy who needed healing and not the adult man. I am not sure how Christ, through the Holy Spirit, accomplished His healing in me but I do know that someone prayed for me and as a result I cried a lot. Even a tough guy like me needed to set his pride aside for a while to receive Gods liberty. The transformation was gradual but I began to notice that I was attempting new things and was no longer hampered by any inward pain. The prison doors, for me, were finally opened.
This healing helped me to understand that I had only masked my emotions and the ever present power of God is available to anyone who believes. It will totally erase all emotional hurt and pain resulting in a more abundant life.
1 John 1: 5 ‘"God is light, and in Him is no darkness at all.”
When Spirit of God abides in you then you are full of light and there is no place for darkness to abide. God is no respecter of persons, so, what God did for me He will do for you. Now I think that’s awesome!
1 Thessalonians 5: 23… And the very God of peace sanctify you wholly; and I pray God your whole spirit and soul and body be preserved blameless unto the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.